This is a stupid thing to be upset about

One of my old school friends has just got engaged, I'm totally stoked for her, and I wish her all the happiness in the world. She text messaged me a couple of weeks ago and I've been trying to get hold of her but goddamn she's a hard girl to track down. I just spoke to another friend on the phone who is in London, and not only has she received a picture of the ring and details about a wedding date, she was asked to be Matron of Honour. And I didn't even get a reply text message with her address so I can send her the card and the present that I have waiting on my dresser, let alone this email that all my friends in London have been discussing. I've been telling myself that somehow her email been filtered into my junk account and deleted before I've had the chance to read it (had a slow week net-wise), but.... I'm crazy insecure at the moment and possibly premenstrual. And can't help suspecting that the real reason I haven't heard from her is because nobody loves me. *Sighs with self pity and goes back to bed*