How I am getting me out of a slump.

I've been going through a Stage the last few weeks; everything seems so sordid and I'm over almost everything. I've  even been experiencing my favourite: "rising tides of panic" at work. The favourite aspect of my Stages is the mountains and mountains of procrastination teamed with high levels of poor money management. Hence, today, instead of going to Derby training I went to Farmers and shopped for make-up brushes. As inane as it sounds.

No quick fix, and I feel terribly brittle and as though I'm granny-stepping on the edge of something very high... it's not taking much to piss me off. Before the Spiral comes the Rage. At present I am moving in a miasma of barely controlled anger. The slightest Incident causes explosions of temper. I tremble with aggression when corrected. Dishes drive me to distraction.

Easy out of this tenuous-grip-on-reality-feeling is to increase ye olde anti-depressants (Is it tacky for me to blog that? Apologies if yes). Better way is to take care of myself. Healthy mind, healthy body etc and it's perhaps not a coincidence that the Spiral is often related to weekends where I have been busy, drinking and not eating terribly well. Once again, better eating is my conclusion. And earlier nights. And being Kind to Myself. And maybe climbing into my rose-scented happy place.

Kind, generous SCP reader, send me your good energy. I'm going to need it again this week.